This year has been a strange mashup of school, styled shoots, publications, and development. It has taken me by surprise how I've managed to climb through the pile of responsibilities that has taken its toll on me this past year. Even this month, the undeniably merriest month, is busy right up until Christmas, which leaves me desperately longing for nights in, watching Christmas movies with gingerbread baking in the oven. (No joke, this is my dream at the moment)
I am a homebody. No if's, and's, or but's. I like being in the comfort of my lounging clothes and having an infinite supply of tea ready for any moment. I enjoy the warmth of my throws and being able to wake up, actually put some effort into breakfast, and then do nothing except enjoy the stillness. I enjoy spending my time creating new designs and dreaming up crazy ideas to do with my partner in crime, Janice. Yet I found that I actually did very little of this in 2016. A lot of my time was spent outside the house, running errands, and answering to responsibilities I didn't expect.
So looking back, it has been a rollercoaster of a year. There have been so many moments, and I can't possibly explain all of them, so I'll display them below and let you derive your own conclusions. (they're not in perfect chronological order!)
There's a lot that I left unfinished, untouched, or didn't even have time to think over in 2016. I have learnt one important lesson this year though - know your worth. There were many times when I was tempted and waffled around whether I should contribute my services at no charge or the value of my services. But as scary as it is to assert myself, it's so important and necessary for any creative. It places confidence in yourself and in the eyes of others as well. Instead of bending over backwards to work for a client, by knowing the value of your talents, you can instead work with clients who align with your vision.
I also collaborated on projects with other local Calgary creatives, and some fell through, while others took off. Though I'm uncertain of how likely I am to continue to create products to sell in a shop per se, I am so thankful I had the opportunity to share my work through markets and stores in Calgary.
A realization I came to recently was that I usually can't set goals easily, but surprisingly, they hit me hard today. I was in the shower (I'll spare you details), and I saw a vision of what I wanted to do with this, with my life, with my talents. (I'll share more of this in the future) I wouldn't dare claim that God sent me this vision, but I won't deny that He may have instrumented that image to form. God (and Isaac and Janice and my family) have been my pillars of strength through this journey and He has opened up so many possibilities I never thought I would experience. I often think on this and I realize how incapable I am as just me. I am only what I am because of those who have loved me, loved my work, offered me a chance, and encouraged me. I have what I have because the Lord has blessed me with the abilities to achieve it and maintain work-life-school balance.
Praise be to you my gracious, everlasting Father. And a warm, warm thank you to my silent supporters, my IG likers, and those who have been my crutches in 2016. I promise to learn and grow more in 2017.
always with love,